Thoughts - Deep, Down, Inside…

There are so many things left unseen in this world: the beautiful sights, the wonderful landscape scenery, and the ugly sight of Human nature. It is only when one is abroad, with only himself as the only person he can trust and depend on, who can realise this. Going abroad with a group of people you are forced to be with makes it scary, especially with colleages that you must work with. Maybe this is how friends are made, but what happens if you cannot make friends these people? The ugly side of Human nature starts to surface. You do not know what is hiding behind the scary smiles that they put on their face. You do not know how much they hate or like you behind the jokes they make in attempt to lighten up the atmosphere. You do not know how many backstabs and badmouth they have made on you. You don’t know what yoou can tell them and what you cannot tell them.The worst is you have heard them badmouthing another person but you do not know whether they have done the same on you. In the situation when you are abroad and away from your families and friends, you only know best what is in your own mind and heart, and it is only then when neutral things with no feelings, like the beautiful landscapes and sceneries that you do not get at home seems to so especially soothing and heartwarming. Maybe this is the reason why I like to cycle and go window-shopping alone. Yes you may say I am anti-social, but to me there are really too many beautiful things in this world to go see and feel for, then to waste time and deal with unneccesary human relationships. It is also because of this that makes me increasingly hate going back to work as you-know-what (well it is a crime to talk here about what kind of work I do ;I). Being the surbordinate makes me bound to work for the superior’s ego and sometimes under their fury. What is worst is all the things you have done are not being appreciated, at all, let alone be recognised, even by your own fellow colleagues.

Human relationships are one of the most difficult things in this mortal world to learn to deal with, and I feel that it will take me one whole lifetime to learn.

But I still like to roam around alone abroad at unfamiliar places. It is only this that can allow me to experience the true local flavours, unscarred by troublesome human relationships meddling.